Oompa,
I have a recovering alcoholic husband, an alcoholic brother, and a grandmother who died, riddled with cancer, with a low ball glass of Wild Turkey in her hand. Man, booze kills...brain cells, families, relationships, and your soul. I agree with those that said to man up, grow balls, cowboy up, or as Gordon Ramsey says "get some bollocks". My brother lost his wife of 20 years because of booze and one of his two kids will have nothing to do with him because she can't stand his drinking. You don't want that. It sounds like you love your wife and your kids. Put your bottle down, stand up, man up, tell the borg "f*** you" and get on with your life. YOU run your life. Now live it.
Mrs. Witness.